Tired Out

I know i've been doing silly things so often lately. I really do. Sometimes i try to think deeply why i've done things these ways. I don't have any idea what is up on your mind now, i feel like i've been too far and it's hard to get closer to you. This distance, i couldn't deny that it really takes us apart. Not just now we're staying miles away, but out hearts too. 

Maybe i'm the one who have been so selfish all the times. I know you've been telling me that you might find your limit. A moment when you couldn't just let this selfishness tires you out. 

Lately, i've been acting so tough, i've been acting like i don't need you. At this moment, all of those acts, i'm feeling like i just can't stand with them anymore. But, you do know me. I've always been like this. I don't like admitting that i'm lose to you. 

But, dear, do you know? I'm not dropping any teardrop right now, but i can feel that my heart's crying. I know i've been hurting myself. But i don't know why i have no intention just to talk to you, just to make everything gets better. 

BAKA.

That's maybe how japanese would tell me. 

I'm just tired now.

Trip To Tochigi Prefecture

Yesterday i had a one day trip together with other students and CIP. We went to Tochigi Prefecture, which is located in the northern part of Kanto region. I was excited about the trip and wished that it would be fun. We took about 3 hours by bus to reach Tochigi Pref. 

Okay, now i'm gonna tell you the local places that i visited.

COCO Farm Winery

The winery farm in Tochigi Pref. is one of wine producers in Japan besides those in Hokkaido, Saitama, etc. What makes me interested in this winery farm is that it employs handicap people. The owner of the farm wanted to proof that the farm could make a high quality wine no matter what kind of workers made it. Unfortunately since i don't drink alcohol, and they don't produce wine without alcohol, so i couldn't taste the wine. But i had a glass of grape juice (with soda) and it was great. 

Ashikaga Gakko
Ashikaga Gakko has been said as the oldest university in Japan. But about a century ago, because of the changes in education system of university, Ashikaga Gakko stopped operating. Since then, it became one of the best tourism objects in Tochigi Prefecture. There's also temple and shrine nearby.

 

Anyway, besides the trip, yesterday i also got another good news *fortunately. I got the result announcement of the Japanese Language Proficiency Test. And the result showed that i'm PASSED. Yayyayyyayyy. So happy even it's just level 3 which means that now i should be able having a daily conversation :)

Inspired

Vertical Light

Last night i went to Roppongi to have a meeting with other Indonesian students at GRIPS campus. Then after having a long talk with everyone then concluded the meeting, some of us decided to have dinner together. This photo was taken on my way from GRIPS campus to Saizeria (the restaurant). Well i think this photo is good enough to be posted here. hehe.

*anyway my school holiday is officially started today :)

Making Other Footsteps

First day of February, just like what the weather forecast said that it would be snowing today from 6 pm. So here is my first snow in Tokyo. Even i've seen greater snow at Nagano, but i was so excited walking through the snow near my dorm. 

Snow :)

At The End of The Month

I've been spending the last three weeks with a mountain of assignments, presentations, and a whole week full of exams. Feel so relieve that i could finally passed those times. Well actually i still have one more exam left on February 2nd, but it's English exam. I don't mean that i'm underestimating this exam, but at least this time i won't need to translate the material from japanese to english for studying. I'm feeling so enough with translating stuff(s). 

Well how was my exam? I couldn't say anything about that, but all i know that i didn't leave those exams' rooms without writing anything. Yes, at least i wrote something on those papers and i don't wanna think about the results now. I've decided that i'm just gonna wait for them. 

Okay, it means that i almost arrive at the end of this academic year. My freshmen year at Tokyo University of Agriculture. Holiday is coming ahead then i'm gonna have new kouhai (juniors) soon. Well, kouhai?? Sounds interesting but honestly that makes me feel older. haha. I guess they're coming on the late March. Yayyyayayyy.

Now, i'm thinking (yes i'm really thinking) on how i'm gonna spend my long holiday. I will have 2 months holiday. What am i going to do?? No idea No No No. Sounds bad. But i wish i could travel around. Hm, wish me a great holiday, friends :)

Anyway today i went to a farm in Sakurashinmachi, Tokyo. I helped them cutting the roots of komatsuna (a kind of spinach but not exactly the same). Great activity on sunday morning :)

a kid was playing the worms

Another Surprising Thing

I don't know whether you have seen this or not, i just like to share this video here since i adore the way he played that ukulele *wish he could also sing as well as he played the ukulele.