What do you guys think about LDR? Is it fun? Is it suck?
Personally i hate LDR. Yes, i do. And i hate the fact that now i'm doing such LDR. I don't like being far from someone i love. It's like screw myself up. I often get mad because i can't accept the fact that i can't be far from him. I want to stay close with him in every second of my life.
Okay, in the beginning, i was the one who decided to go abroad. I was the one who decided to go far away from him. But it was not because i don't want to stay close with him. There was a reason why i should decided so.
Now, i'm not regret that i've decided to go abroad. Because i like the place where now i'm living at. But i just regret that i should lost all the time which could be spent together with him.
Sometimes i feel so tired to do it. I feel like maybe this is the time to give up. Maybe this is the time to end everything. But is it?
I have so many dreams of how our life will be in the future. I don't want to let them all dissapear. Can i survive? Can he? Can we? I really don't know. I'm just hoping so.